Selfish Prayer for Light

Just bought a graphics tablet today. Been trying to do something but... yeah, didn't really work my way (yet!). Gotta practice much more and results will come, I hope. I was trying to draw some characters, but I didn't have patience for that. So, during my routine deep mood past 10 pm, I draw... this. I have no idea what it is but I kinda like it.

"The 5 Stages of Grief & Loss" as proposed by Elisabeth Kübler-Ross 
1. Denial and isolation
- words like "yeah, everything will be fine, just give it some time"
2. Anger
- moments, when I hate everyone around me, even though those people are as close to my heart as someone can get (to regret it afterwards when I realise I might just acted like a compete dick)
3. Bargaining
- IF that happens, everything will be just on point!
4. Depression
- not really depression, just shitty mood, usually occur in the night during insomnia
5. Acceptance
- oh I wish